I haven't updated you guys on whats been going on..
- Ive been working AS USUAL! Yea, that thing, the thing that takes me away from my fantasy world and brings me back to reality...work! Ive been stressing because we have a new manager and for some reason she's giving everyone hours but me! She thinks its not fair I have the most hours 24/7. But if she only knew I earned it. Ive been through everything with that stupid store and never complained not once! She gave the hours I told her I was sposed to have to israel. I explained to her I have to pay bills, she didnt care. Im so pissed I didnt leave them to fall and go to that other job! Anyways, I told her she should just give me the hours, not only because I have to pay bills. Nope, not just for my personal benefit. But because no one else can stand working there everyday but one day besides me. So like I knew, Israel called and asked me if I wanted to come in from 2:30 to 9:30...BLAH..Right after I made plans for lunch with geneva & prisana! I was happy yet upset happy because I want/need the extra money but upset bc I really wanted to go out to lunch! I havent chilled with anyone in FOREVER!! So I decided to push it to the limit and I went to lunch and had them take me to work after I showed them my house..So I only missed two hours (18$$) which is okay because I basically made that up in tips! Im all about $$! I need to buy a new car so I can learn how to drive.
- I went out with Geneva & Prisana yesterday...It was cool, I havent been out with anyone in forever. I thought I came off kind of dorky because I felt like I was bugging them to hang out with me! They look soo grown up! Anyways we went out to eat at Chili's and it was kool. we talked about everything in general in life (high school, work, school, what we're doing now, what others are doing now..) and yea I realized we have a lot in common. I didnt know they didnt eat pork like me and I didnt know geneva's never been to a party & prisana doesnt have any tattoo's. They werent like all my other friends who were drama and ghetto and everything. Theyre really nice fun loving people. I can see myself being close to them. But I dont wanna push it lol, I still felt a lil outta place..anyways I realized geneva's kind of a ditzy driver, lol (dnt take it personal) but I still love her! I showed them my house and they loved it. BRANDON ACTUALLY ACTED NORMAL!!! hahaha...And then I asked them if they can take me to work, I felt soo bad when the coupons I gave them expired, I didnt want them to think that I scammed them to gimmie a ride! I tried to pay them back but they wouldnt except it..lol..=| I owe you guys!!!
- Ive been working out, yep! I ran went swimming did some laps around the pool and stretched, which hurt like hell I also have to keep up with my teeth face and scar healing treatments, not to mention my hair. I think my hair is thinning!! ugh im soo old. Im gonna buy that ovation cell therapy IT BETTER WORK! lol.. But not when brandon did this random ass backflip into the water, he was all calm and talking to me then he gave me his hat and jumped in. it was like some punk rocker ish...haha it was soo funny.
- I started reading the Bible again yes, another reason I have to get a car...so I can request saturday off for church. I feel like Ive been neglecting Him and havent been paying tithes and barely finding time to read the bible, which is horrible! I apologize and Im going to get myself back on track!!
- Im working on a song So I did some research found some beats (but the one I want is expensive as hell!) and I wrote a song to the sample beat b/c I dont want to buy it till i buy the car my bills are out the way and I save up $ for the winter in case no one hires me..I love it its a slow song but the bpm is 110+ so hopefully brandon gets hired so i can buy this beat and get some studio time. I really dont know how to go about doing this, but I dont want anyone I know to be there. This is a BIG step for me seeing as how shy I am around singing. But I have to find someone Im comfortable with enough to practice with them. I dont want to rent a studio and not have practiced, it would come out crappy then. I think Imma talk to my mom. I also dont know if you have to hure somebidy to push all those buttons in front of the sound proof room in the studio! ugh im so lost. I would ask brandy, but she's being and emo person right now, she thinks I got money moved up in life and left her. We got into an arguement which I suck at doing, she was like ur so random!!! & I was like your cat is your best friend. and the ONLY REASON WE'RE NOT HANGING OUT is because your girlfriend probably changed you soo much (i can tell) and I cant afford to pay for you and me. Im not willing to chill if I have to pay for it all. All she does is sleep now and school nothing else...anyways, yea, Im sposed to be on screenwritersradio.com Im gonna check it out
- I also attended the playboy party it was smf! (so much fun) but this guy pulled me to the side and took me to his hotel room, I was sooo scared I thought he was gonna try to rape me! but he questioned me and told me everything I need to know to get in. All except, me meeting the CEO I couldnt find him because all these guys were in my face! anyways it was so awesome! people assumed everyone there was 21 because its playboy right? so guys were sending me drinks and giving me their cards, one guy gave me his jacket and left his car keys in it! I was like wow! every guy there was SOMEBODY i met the owner of the biggest club in the u.s. and I can go on & on talking about it but Im on a time limit. It was smf!! I dont know if I made the cuts but Ill find out and let you know! I hope to God I did because it wasnt what I thought it would be it wasnt slutty at all.. I got invited to another event which Im so happy about. I just hope I dont screw up and they drop me! I think theyre all trying to help ease me into the world of playboy because they asked me to come back, i think so people will start recognizing my face and asking about me! The guy that pulled me to the side asked me, how would you like to live in l.a.!!! I was like heck yea!! only thing i regret that night is that i never got to be introduced to the ceo which could hender my chances tremendously! =| hopefully I see him at the next party! I loved it soo much! Minus the girl drama these two girls tried to get me to get the other kicked out because some girl was mad because I was chosen 2nd and she tried to cut me off..anywho, i wanna ask chanelle who the owner is but I dont wanna come off desperate so Ill wait. I also forgot to bring a pic like she told me! major minus! but hey this thing is every year I just have to look out for it and go next time, because the ONLY major holdback is that im not 21 and by next year if I get chosen Ill bee 21 by the finales and then I cant attend playboy mansion! Itd suck if I won this year and then couldnt go bc of my age =[ lemme get off this topic b4 i write a bool
- my relationship with Brandon is good overall we cant wait for him to get hired. maybe i can take break! and then he can help with bills, hopefully nothing stupid happens and he doesnt get fired or quits because its harder to work with a record..We get a long most of the time and he cooks and cleans and i luv him. Its just when we argue that makes me wanna leave him, but weve only argued once recently. those classes really help and hes changing, as geneva says, hes a man..hahaha..so yea
ttyl
Amber Mmmm!
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