My Not So Day Off

Hey Guys,

I havent updated this thing in a while s0 let me update you:

Its 10:05am and mygf is upstairs mad im not up there with her making breakfast
A dog is licking me
and my job is trying to call me into work, but Im debating wether I should go or not, because Im always coming into work and ditching the rest of my life, $$ sounds good, but now that I think about it I have driving lessons Ive already paid 200 for, so I cant...OH WELL!
Ive stopped being so dedicated do working, I no longer work 2 jobs, I broke away from my abusive bf even though he has improved, I feel I can be treated better, not to mention hes being held on trial for chasing me down the street with a knife. I finished my 1st semester in college w.o dropping out!! All A's 1 A- =/ oh I wrote a poem! Ill upload tht and some pictures. Hmm how do I feel?? I feel like Im being a liddo more independent, yea, part of me wants to go back and work things out just because weve been together so long, but when I realize how much of an asshole he still is, My dreams are crushed and I change my mind, also, modeling, Im kind of not on it as much because My BIG opportunities I was working for were handed to me...at a cost...I thought the rumors were false, but they really do want sex....sigh!...anywho the relationship Im currently in is okay, It was perfect at 1st then, when I told her I still had feelings for brandon, Im guessing she stopped trying, I think shes me sumtimes, but we still have fun, maybe Im just worrying too much, I also battle in my head with this whole thing and God and some other things, like having kids and how I want someone whos going to do the right thing and go far, everyone says hey were young dont worry, but I like stable things so I want to get this love issue out the way so I can work on my career. I think sometime maybe I need to be alone, I havent been single since, like the 8th grade really, like, for months at a time. Im working on getting my own place bc all my stuff is at brandons n mines but theres a ro so I cant c him, my moms house is still crazy, and here....welll I want to be in a less dramatic/smoke-free environment. Im also overcoming my driving phobia and have classes today at 12 and the morse game at 230 and shannae wants to chill wit me after but idk. Last nite me gully kay brandy n dajonna drank n tried to see avatar but it was sold out...thats about it 4 now =]

Love Ya toodles!!